Wait, What? Is This Happening?

WHERE DID THE TIME GO?! Friday I signed up for my SENIOR year of classes. SENIOR that’s right SENIOR! Oy vey. I just don’t feel like im ready. I don’t feel like its really happening. But it is. In one year I’ll be preparing for graduate school, and graduating from college. GRADUATING.

I’m not ready for the real world. I have NO IDEA what I’m doing with my life. I have no idea where it's going. I have no idea what’s going to happen. Not to mention I'm terrified. Is this normal? Do most people feel like this when they're my age?

I can’t be the only one who feels this way, right?

I don’t feel like I’m old enough to be done with college. But I guess I’m not really done. I do have three more years of graduate school. But graduate school is COMPLETELY different than undergrad. Do you even get to have fun in grad school? Is it all just working? What do you do there? Its just this mysterious place that I haven’t even gotten into yet which is a totally different story in itself.

I’ve really come to love this place after three years and I’m JUST NOW starting to feel 100% comfortable being up here… and now I have to leave. Is that what life is like though? You get used to something and then life throws you a curve ball that you have to get used to? I guess this isn’t really a curve ball though. I mean you can’t stay in college forever.

Don’t get me wrong, though. I’m SUPER excited for the next chapter. It’s just one of those moments when you’re like, “whoa that snuck up on me now didn’t it?”  Does anybody else have those moments? I’m sure I cant be alone in this.

Well thank you all for bearing with me on my small, little, baby freak out about graduation. Mom, I know you’re reading and I’m fine I promise.

Until next time!