It Is What It Is: Finals and End of the Semester Reflections

Finals. The ultimate test to see that you didn’t actually learn anything this semester. Finals are the ultimate stress maker and ultimate sleep depriver. This year I at least had people in my classes that I could study with to make it a little less stressful. Oddly enough I wasn’t as stressed about it this semester as I have been. Maybe it’s because I actually understand what I’m doing for once. Maybe it’s because I’ve finally gotten into the groove of school, even if I am a little late to the party. Or maybe it’s because of what I think has become my motto for this semester:

It is what it is.

If you know me, you know I am a huge worry wart. You know that I worry about anything and everything going on in my life. This semester was a roller coaster full of things that I never expected. The biggest, obviously, was Nick and I breaking up. Not to mention classes, a new job, discovering things about grad school, and plenty of other things to worry about. Through everything, though, I have learned that worrying isn’t going to change anything. I think that’s my biggest accomplishment for this semester. Yes, I am still dealing with getting over this break up. Yes, some days I do still get sad. And yes, I do still wish that things were different. But worrying about all of that is going to get me nowhere. It’s not going to make Nick come back. It’s not going to make me feel any better to mope and worry about what might have been. There isn’t anything that I can do about what is happening between he and I. There isn’t anything I can do to change it.

 It is what it is.

All I can do is hold my head up high and be myself. Whatever is meant to be will happen, and worry about what is or is not going to happen isn’t going to change a darn thing.

As far as school goes, I have never been more relaxed about a semester than I have been this time. I know that I work my butt off for school. I know that I study hard and at the end of the day…

It is what it is.

I can’t do anything more that what is my best. As long as I study hard and as long as I continue to push myself, I can’t ask for anything more.

This semester has been challenging both emotionally and scholastically, but I learned a lot and I had fun. I can’t say I wouldn’t change anything because that’s not entirely true, but with all things considered it was definitely a semester for the books. I think I kicked ass this semester. I’m excited to see what next semester has in store, and I’m excited to move forward.